Upon smoking the Salvinorin I was transported to a dimension where it
seemed that all of creation was visible to me. The entire universe
was
turning inside-out and then outside-in in a rapidly repeating manner.
As
this occurred, the "outside" or negative universe was seen to be an
exact replica of the "inside" or manifest material universe. These two
sides balanced and flowed through one another like a galactic, multi-dimensional
yin-yang. The intricacy and perfection of this "dance," this movement and
interpretation of the two halves of Form and Emptiness, was spectacular.
and can probably best be described as appearing like a cosmic, animated
Escher painting.
The entire surface of the universe could be seen as though existing
on the
interior surface of a giant sphere. With the movement, part of the
universe would flow through the center of this sphere, where it seemed
that I was staring down the "axis" where form and non-form met and
flowed
through each other. This "axis" I was staring down also existed within
the
curved universe, and seemed to curve around and come back behind my
head.
Each time a cycle of turning inside-out was completed, the last object
that would traverse the gate to the opposite side was my own body and
being.
As I observed all this I felt a loving connection reaching out to
everything in the universe, coupled with pristine clarity and vastly
expanded consciousness. At some point I had a revelation where I perceived
all form, all creation, as the male counterpart to being. At this same
time, I realized there was a female counterpart to manifest creation,
which was the emptiness or space from which, and in which, all of this
had
been created. I had a powerful experience of this Divine Mother and
felt
the love with which she gave of herself so that existence could come
into
being, and the love that she feels for all of existence. There were
intense feelings of sweeping joy and happiness, and of being in complete
harmony with everything. As I gradually started to come out of this
state
I went through a cycle of powerful emotions which repeated at first
every
few seconds, slowing to where I would feel each emotion for a minute
or
two. I distinctly recall feelings of awe, wonder, and reverence beyond
anything I'd felt before.
At the time I got out of bed I was still in unison with this magnificent
experience. For the first time I can remember I had the feeling that
all
of my shells and protections, which normally produce a certain distance
and separation from life, had been completely removed. To a certain
degree
this feeling is common with most psychedelics, but I had never experienced
anything even approaching this degree of freedom. I was fully and
immediately embracing the universe and anything it may place in my
path, as it was all a part of the Divine Mother, it seemed that my entire
life had been spent behind a sheet of glass that had become grimier and
grimier over time, and all of a
sudden this glass had been whisked away and the universe was before
me
with a new and startling clarity. Much to my chagrin, these shells
gradually formed around nit during the next half hour. But there remains
to this day a connection to this immaculate state, and a desire to
live
closer to it and someday experience it again.
Much of what I experienced in this session has been felt in subsequent
journeys. In particular, the perception of the universe turning rapidly
inside-out, and seen as though occupying the interior of a sphere, occurs
nearly every time I smoke Salvinorin. Siebert has commented on this perceived
"flattening out" of the universe as "it is not so much that the universe
becomes two dimensional, it's more that I move into a higher dimension,
from where everything appears "flat," similar to how two dimensional objects
appear to our normal perception." The cycle of repeating emotions and sensations
is also very common. Often this includes feelings of complete disbelief
and confusion at what is being experienced. alternating with total understanding
of the situation, and even hilarious laughter at how I normally don't recognize
the now obvious state of affairs. The experience described above was about
one and one-half hours in duration. Most subsequent experiments have also
shown increased duration of the Salvinorin trip if taken while on LSD or
2C-B, along with potentiation of the Salvinorin.