Dear John,

I've heard you've been filling your friend's shoes.

Wrong! I could never be her. I wouldn't want to be!

NO ONE CAN ADMIRE AND ADORE SOMEONE FOR THIS LONG.

My devotion . . . let's just say you and your friend shared some special times together . . . but there are others who will devote more, and give more to you in a relationship.

I know there are, John . . .

I promise you.

P.J.

October 23, 199-

I don't even want to analyze the thing. P.J. knew I went to see my old girlfriend at the club in the city. She knew my old girlfriend wanted to be a rock-and-roll singer. When I saw her on stage again last weekend it brought back all the memories. Six years ago and I felt the same way about _____ that I feel now about P.J:

It has become the time for me to respond, to choose between either leading the chaste life, totally away from everyone, in as much as I can practically accomplish that, or following this other way, this American lotto-dream, where you meet the right girl, fall in love, and live happily ever after.

All that jazz. All the same old stuff.

That's what I wrote about _____ six years ago. P.J. has become the obstacle for me now.